Struggling with Inconsistency

Since I broke my elbow around the end of June, I’ve been on medical leave from my job without all that much to do aside from physical therapy. Unfortunately, I have a hard time functioning without the structure I get from work. I wish that I could have spent this time doing something amazing. TowardContinue reading “Struggling with Inconsistency”

Expectations

As someone who suffers from anxiety, I often find myself meditating on how expectations affect our ability to enjoy life. Anxiety is kind of like an overwhelming flood of expectations. The trick to managing it is to use practices to help you avoid letting the expectations keep you from living your life. A few yearsContinue reading “Expectations”

Acceptance

when a tree grows up to a rock it doesn’t break through but grows around the rock trunk twisting and adapting so our emotional growth recurls from trauma leading a winding path to “feeling okay” – It’s Okay to be Where You Are Sometimes, it can be easy to feel like we’re not where weContinue reading “Acceptance”

Dissatisfaction

My recent vacation was great, and it was fun to get to ride around some amazing places, but since I returned I have been dealing with a sense of dissatisfaction. Going on the vacation presented a lot of tradeoffs for me. I was happy with how I prepared for my vacation by spending the fewContinue reading “Dissatisfaction”

Forgiveness

I grew up with daily emotional abuse. I am at a point in my life where I have empathy for my parents. I don’t bring up emotional abuse at this point to hold it over their heads. I mention it in case hearing that validates someone else’s experience, and it’s relevant for me to theContinue reading “Forgiveness”

Finding Flexibility

Today, I am recovering from a massage. I find myself meditating on flexibility as my ambitions to grow as a rider comes into conflict with the information I’m getting from my body. I want to push myself to climb higher, ride farther, and endure more on my bike. I honestly feel guilty if I goContinue reading “Finding Flexibility”

Gratitude

One of the first practices my therapist gave me to manage my anxiety was called “3-2-1.” It’s a daily practice that involves articulating 3 things you’re grateful for, 2 affirmations, and 1 productive thing to do for the day. I’ve been maintaining this practice pretty consistently for almost 2 years now. I have found theContinue reading “Gratitude”