Selfless Trap

seeking balance for detachment
I say, “minimize the self,”
and this wretched animal
in me grins and grips the door,
“you’re nothing,” he sneers

I try to struggle but
I am snared and sinking
in sanguine negation,
smirk particles smash DNA
shattering self in fragments

with my foot on my neck
balance is abstract
an ouroboros, I am
spitting out chewed up pieces
of myself in disdain, a critic